Today’s entry is going to be a little different. I’m not using the day as I have on all the other entries. Why? The reason is because I wrote it Sunday! It’s a letter to John. Today is our birthday. I knew I couldn’t do this on Thursday. The tears are flowing down my cheek today as I write this posting - no way could I do this on Thursday! My birthdays will never be the same. I lost part of me on August 5. Don’t think for moment that I loved John more than I do Dink and Mike – because I don’t. We happened to be twins and unless you are a twin – it’s hard to explain. There is a bond – unspoken most of the time – but it was there and now there is a feeling of emptiness.
Dear John,
Happy Birthday! This will be the first birthday in which I won’t get to race to the phone to place a call. In the last few years, we tried to beat the other and be the one to make the birthday call! That is going to be the hardest thing about today – not hearing you say, “Happy birthday Sis! I’m just four minutes older than you, but we are the same age!” I always teased you that you could have all the birthdays after we turned 29! You never would let me get by with that!
I always loved it when you started getting the surprise birthday parties, but you always said you knew something was up!!! I could hear the excitement in your voice - your family and friends were going to surprise you! You were the one that not only your family depended on, but many of your friends depended on you too. This was quiet evident by the number that came to pay their last respects. I’m sure many of them will remember you today, especially Laurie and the kids.
I know you were reading the blog and enjoyed it! I found some of our past birthday pictures before you moved to Ohio and know you wouldn’t care if I shared them with the readers of the blog! I know you are in a far better place and that you are keeping an eye on us all. I can just hear your laughter when looking at some of the pictures I have posted in the past including those posted today. I love you and miss you! Happy Birthday my dear brother!
Your loving sister,
Sue
Here we are - not even a year old! l-r John - Sue
John - Sue - about 1954/1955
Happy Birthday - 1955 Mammaw Layne is standing in the background!
Happy Birthday - Sue, John, Kay (Kay's birthday was Jan 23)
Happy Birthday - John and Sue 1967
The last time we were together on our birthday - 1989 - Wayne, WV with the family!
The last time we were together on our birthday - 1989 - Wayne, WV with the family!
2 comments:
That is so sweet and special Sue. Happy Birthday! I pray today is a special day for you and that the Lord comforts you with a lot of special memories of John, while you're missing him so much today. Praying for you!
Thanks Ruthie. There are so many good memories of John. When Dink, Mike, and I get together at Mom's -oh the "John" stories start and there is laughter in the house. Were John with us he would be laughing the hardest! We all loved him very much and miss him.
Thank you for the prayers! It has been a good day - sun is shining and we're warming up a little; Bill gave me tickets so we can go see Celtic Woman agan; and he even fixed breakfast and brought it to me! Toby is not sure of what to think about this! :):) Oh, I also got a Wii - fun times will soon begin! :):)
Hope you are staying warm and that Sophia and Riley are healthy - along with you and Jamie.
Love and Prayers,
Sue
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