Dilemma

Thursday - February 19, 2009

Many times things happen that are completely out of our control which causes us to ponder on what we should do! It will soon be a week since my oldest brother had a stroke and then suffered a heart attack a few days later. He is in very serious condition, but is showing signs of improvement. Today he actually spoke the words "I Love You" to Mom! He is aware of what is going on around him, but cannot communicate with us.

This weekend is also the baby shower for Jeni and David's "baby girl" in Akron. I had planned on attending this shower. I would love to go, but I can't leave. After losing one brother so suddenly, I can't stand the thoughts of not being close with my oldest brother being in ICU. I know they understand why I'm not there, and thanks to David's mother, Charlotte, the baby will receive the special gifts from the Layne clan back here in WV.

My youngest brother and I are trying to help Mom and Rhonda as much as we can. Friends are helping as are other family members and it is so appreciated. Rhonda's brothers, sisters-in law, aunt, uncle, and co-workers have been so supportive and encouraging. All have been saying prayers for Dink and the entire family.

The dilemma of being at the shower and being close to my brother has been heart wrenching. I want to be in both places. I'm hoping via pictures I will be able to see the happy times at the shower. Right now I feel my place is to be close to Dink, Mom, Rhonda, the boys, and Mike.

We know the power of prayer and the miracles that occur - we are praying for a miracle.