Tuesday - November 16, 2009
Many of the post I've written have come from the heart in which I thought some would appreciate, like, or agree with. I felt many times I would get a response about the post. Guess I was wrong! I'm not writing to win an award or a pat on the back, but to share with family and friends what might be going on in our lives. But I do know someone reads the blog - according to the counter - so that is good! I just hope that some of the things that have been written, a picture, and even a memory will touch your hearts in a positive way!!!
There are many things weighing heavy on my heart, some of which I will share, other I have chosen not to. God is the only one who knows all my worries, thoughts, hopes, and dreams. I will say that I worry about my family - all have their own individual obstacles to endure and hopefully overcome. I pray that God is with them and will help them through all that in front of them! My prayers are that they all will be able to accept and go forward with whatever God places in front of us all. HE is the ONE in charge!!!
Naturally, one that I worry about is Mom. She is 89 and at times thinks she's 29!!! She can
literally at times out work the grandchildren and does it without complaining!!! He generation knew nothing but hard work. They had only themselves to depend on when work was to be completed, because each person had their own
responsibilities. She has worked hard her entire life, and she still feels that is the way it should be. Recently she was told by the doctor to keep her feet elevated to help with the swelling. This has been one of the hardest things for her to do. She has followed the doctors orders for the most part! It is so hard to see her wanting to be doing things she did all her life, but doesn't have the stamina to keep up the pace as she use to! She does great, and we try to let her be as active as she can without over doing! How do we decide what is too much and what's not. We let her decide. Her body is telling her, and we watch for the signs!
Dink is another one I worry about - he has been trying so hard to regain what the stroke took away from him. HE and Rhonda both have been relentless with do his therapies even though they have taken a hiatus from the St Mary's Therapy due to the potential of being exposed to all who may have the flu. Rhonda is constantly with Dink, and I worry about her as well. Both are working around and over obstacles many of would never dream about enduring!
I could name all my family and why I worry about them, but the good Lord knows why. I love them all, and will always pray for them.
One little fellow who has caused much worry for Bill and me is Toby. He is our 13 year Old Boston
Terrier - just in case those who read this didn't know that bit of information! :) Toby is now under pain management for the rest of his life. How long that will be is in God's hands. Bill and I can not think about that day we know is approaching sooner than later. Some may say, "what's the big deal? It's just a dog! " No, Toby is NOT just a dog. He has been our companion, our friend, our buddy, and our "
babee" for the last 13 years! He has loved us unconditionally and has appreciated all we have done and given him
throughout his entire life. It will be a very sad day for us when we no longer hear his bark to go outside; his staring at us when we eat awaiting one tiny bite - which the vet said he could have; the piglet sounds while trying to locate the last crumb dropped on the floor; and the snoring when he finally
settles down for the night!! He is and has been the best friend we have ever had.
Those I haven't mention should know they are on my mind as much as those I have mentioned!! Bill, David, Jeni, Cora, Mike, Debbie, Laurie, and ALL my nieces and nephews to name a few more!!!!! Some days I just want to crawl under the covers and not come out until all I love have overcome all that faces them and that they are the happy side of the road of life!!!!
Have you ever thought about what life would be like had you chosen a different path? I think human nature has probably caused most of us wonder a little about that! What if I had taken that other path, where would I be and what would I be doing????? Even with all I worry about, I believe I have taken the right paths - I worked at a job that I loved more than I disliked; I have a family I love and would never trade for anything; and most importantly I have God who loves me when I'm up and when I'm down.
Robert Frost wrote a poem called:
The Road Not Taken
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
I don't know if I took the "road less traveled" or not, but it is the road in which has given me much more to be thankful for even with the worries I might have!!!
